This may well be the last "summer vacation" of my life. Fourth year flew by so quick and has come to an end with just 1 week of exams left (damn pharmacology and pharmaceutics are back to back). If i had majored in business, like I had originally planned on doing, I would have been entering, or been close to entering the real world. At first I figured the 2 extra years of school I had to go through right after my first 4 would be dreadful and miserable, but now I feel that this is the best decision I made in my life. 4 years of college just flew by, and luckily I have two more to enjoy without feeling like a graduate student (old). Also, I don't waste anytime in between getting my undergraduate and my professional degree, and now I can bang it out all at once. I have taken up a lot to do over this summer: the move out of Brunswick, the new job at Walgreens during the week, the wedding bookings every damn weekend, and of course time for family and my friends.

Fifth year does make me a little bit nervous, thinking about the dedication required and the horror stories passed down from upperclassmen and staff, but I am an optimistic person, especially when it comes to me achieving my personal goals, and I'm sure I will make it through. I can finally say I removed myself out of the spell I was in for the past year, since March of 2007, and have moved on to better things. When I say better things, I mean things that make me feel like a better person and make me happier. Of course I don't regret anything that happened in the past year, but you have to know when to call it quits, and when something is not bound to work.

An analogy I made up about relationships, or at least my experiences with them:
Some wrinkles and creases come out easy, but the more you try to iron out the more prominent, harder to get wrinkles, the more chances you have to burn the shirt and ruin it completely. You can choose to wear the cloth with wrinkles, but at the end of the day, you won't be too satisfied with it. Thats when you have to give it up and move on to find another shirt.

i had an interesting night... couldnt help the nostalgia that was present in the atmosphere all around me.

 

new song is up: Kailash Kher - Teri Deewani

so a lot has changed.. and then again a lot hasn't changed from the last time i left an entry (my birthday). we had a crazy time the week of my birthday and the party on december 3rd just topped the cake with icing. the rest of the semester went by smoothly and i did pretty well on finals. i wasn't too happy with my physics grade and i was expecting something completely different - but life happens and we move on. my parents left for india for a two week trip. most people would be ecstatic for the opportunity of freedom, but in turn for me it was nothing glorifying. found a job for the first week of break at Edible Arrangements - (www.ediblearrangements.com) where i cut fruit and made deliveries.. haha it was very unnecessary, but i wanted to try something new. i figured that once im a pharmacist, i will never have a chance to take these different types of jobs. i did quite a few parties through the holiday season and i finish out with two more next week. ohh btw, happy new year. i can't wait till school starts up again and im back in Philadelphia. Philly somehow feels more like a home now than East Brunswick.. which does scare me a little. i was going through a few of my entries from last year and i came across the entry where i ranted about freshmen year, talking about the things i learned, accomplished, as well as the mistakes i made. i had considered myself to be a different person at that time, and i still do, but i guess all those things brought me back to my real self. i feel that i am as real as i can be right now - living life the way i want - doing the things i want. everyday i wake up and i smile because i know that no matter what happens, no matter who breaks me, no matter how things turn out, i will have people to count on forever. some people say that friendships are broken a lot quicker than they form. they say the same about trust as well. i agree. thanks for reading and make sure you come out to Samba on the 21st. (tell me what you think about the flyer i made) - enjoy the song by Amrit Saab. (Jawani).

good day.